i took a test. it felt good. accounting has never felt so good before. ive never felt so dam confident about an accounting paper.
i got to know my project results. it was lousy. it got me very very sad. not cause i didnt try. but i wasnt good enough. i wanted to. lock myself up. and ask why?
then i heard a guy with a guitar. it sounded so good. i thought to myself. why do i keep on singing? why?
then the day continued. i dont even feel like saying anymore. but i felt so.so i dont know. broken inside. just cuz (its nth) but i kept having self reflections. about life, studies and and stuff and i thought to myself, where do i stand? what do i want? where is God in my life?
i wanted to lie in bed and watch a sad movie. so i did.
i watched seven pounds. hugged a pillow, one packet of beautex tissue in my pocket in case anyone walked into the room when a sad scene came up. didnt cry la. teared, badly i admit. but didnt cry.
and and. it changed my day ( the movie JUST ended, but still i feel better already) and. its those movies that makes me look at life from a different view, appreciate what you got.
and i got to know of this incredible composer.
Angelo Milli
just play this on your background and see you if like it.
i dont like. facebook. im quite sane now and ive come to see that its not practical to use the com anymore. i waste time, it could have been used studying, cleaning the house. get better grades. lessen my mum's workload. read the bible. know God's word. anything. just. no more fb. i'm going 1 week without it. not even to check on my updates. nothing.
I, promise.
Sunday, February 07, 2010
today, i had two meals. one was crazy unhealthy and killed my heart. thanks to this.
the second, was this!
wEn yAn's mum made this. haha. was awesome, to have home made food when mugging out at florida. haha oh gosh. so nice. so heart warming. haha anyways MAF revision was alrighty. tomorrow then finish 2 more paper and i'm all set. ive never felt so confident about an ACCOUNTING payper before. haha
thanks to Candice and SAM FAN!@!
oh and thanks wunyen! for tonight AND BRINGING FOOD!! and the kiddy stories. so awesome! haha hehe.
Saturday, February 06, 2010
if you need a teary eye, and some tissues by your side.
today was a wake up call. nothing happened, but i just had alot of time to think through stuff.
what DO i want to, like, achieve. In school, after school, kinda of those rare, plan for future.
I WANNA
-value add myself -get smart -study hard. dont get distracted when mugging -have a productive holiday ( work or get fit) -train for the Sundown marathon -good grades -show ______ that i can make it ( i wanted to say the HOLE WORLD but it sounded lame ) -get musical. -serve in church - write songs -get into OCS when in the army -spend time with friends, but not lose sight of the goals. cuz i already have.
stuff i wanna work for. that 32 gig ipod touch TimBuk2 Bag SUPER EXP KEYBOARD
for now, mug with one thing in mind. be firm, solid with my upcoming exams. i scared sia.
theres a magic word that puts me back in my place. it starts with Discipline.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
shoppig.
study
com skills.
training.
lack of sleep.
art work.
Monday, February 01, 2010
haha. so full off EXCITInG AND HAPPY MOMENTS, and then ultra dissapointing ones.
i tend to take small teeney actions and read too much out of them. ahah. suchajackass.
